"The hummingbird symbolizes many different concepts. Because of its speed, the hummingbird is known as a messenger and stopper of time. It is also a symbol of love, joy, and beauty. The hummingbird is also able to fly backwards, teaching us that we can look back on our past. But, this bird also teaches that we must not dwell on our past; we need to move forward. When the hummingbird hovers over flowers while drinking nectar, we learn that we should savour each moment, and appreciate the things we love. The hummingbird has powerful spiritual significance. In the Andes of South America the hummingbird is a symbol of resurrection. It seems to die on cold nights, but comes back to life again at sunrise. Hummingbird is the creature that opens the heart. When the hurt that caused us to close our hearts gets a chance to heal, our hearts are free to open again. With hummingbird consciousness, we learn the truth of beauty. Our life becomes a wonderland of delights in flowers, aromas and tastes. We laugh and enjoy creation, we appreciate the magic of the present moment, and the magic of being alive. Hummingbird teaches us the medicinal properties of plants and how to work with the energy of flowers to heal ourselves and others. Hummingbirds teach us fierce independence. They teach us to fight in a way where no one gets hurt. They teach us courage. Having the courage to refrain from creating new trauma by communicating non-violently toward ourselves and others is an important part of healing. Recovering lost parts of ourselves enables us to become healthily independent. It is not commonly known that the fluttering wings of the hummingbird move in the pattern of an infinity symbol - further solidifying their symbolism of eternity, continuity, and infinity. By observing the Hummingbird, we see they are seemingly tireless. Always actively seeking the sweetest nectar, they remind us to forever seek out the good in life and the beauty in each day. Amazing migrators, some Hummingbirds are known to wing their way as far as 2000 miles to reach their destination. This quality reminds us to be persistent in the pursuit of our dreams, and adopt the tenacity of the Hummingbird in our lives. "

So I've been thinking about what tattoo I want lately and actually trying to figure out the design. I am constantly thinking of little sayings or phrases that mean something to me and would like it tattooed but, well, I'd be like a human book and that's a bit too much right? so I was thinking of something like this hummingbird image (found online) and tweaking it so that it's actually drawn out in words so to speak. I don't know if that makes sense but I have an idea and I really like it. I'll try to draw it out sometime and post it or something. Of course I won't be getting it until I move out but I love the symbolism of the hummingbird and it's really hard for me to ignore. It's like optimism and encouragement for myself without having it be out there for everyone to see. Even if someone were to see it they wouldn't necessarily understand it either. My little secret. It'll be on my back ribs, right side. Painful I know, but honestly it'd be worth it. Something for myself that I won't be judged for everyday, a gift. Whenever I go through these bad times in life, I'd be able to look at it and think that I've been able to get through so many things and I can get through this too. I'm thinking to get it when everything feels better, when I can actually smile and have it show in my eyes and tug at my heart. A battle scar of sorts. So I can remember everything, but at the same time remember to move on and keep going forward to better things.

Mia: I don't mind if you do, but if I get annoying don't feel obligated or anything lol. Love you<3

And I just realized I have a hummingbird in my background. It's a sign. :]