Day 5 - My Dreams

Dear Dreams,

Sleep Dream: You're so complicated sometimes. Like I'll know what you're saying one day then the next its some freaky scary dream that something or someone is at my window. That REALLY scared the crap out of me! Please change it from those to more cutesy dreams like with cute guys like you do sometimes mkay? :] Like those random ones with Nick J? They come out of no where but hey, I'm not complaining haha!

Future Dreams: I used to see you so clearly. I would know 'okay this is what I have to do and this is how long it will take me'. But now everythings just crap and I'm being held back and getting stuck in a rut. I totally sucks. I'll reach you eventually though :] I will!

♥ Tiffany

Day 4 - The Sibling

Dear Mark,

I miss you! I hate how you always change your number and we never have a way to contact you except through Jett. Out of our gen of Cadienas you're like the only one who doesn't push me out of the circle like everyone else does. Everyone else treats me like I'm ignorant but when they're drinking is practically the only time they really give me props. Other than ate Carla and Nonoy of course :] They just care for everyone ♥ But yeah, I'd say you understand me more. You get that I don't like to talk all the time and when people make me talk they make it insanely awkward like they don't know how to talk to me. But you're awesome :D like always.

I wish you were better though. I don't mean you're a bad person or not good enough. I mean that I wish you were happier and would take care of yourself better. Everyone can depend on you and you can depend on us so I wish you would let us help you clean up. Dad and Jett can be rough, I know. They're old school and strict but then you have everyone else that won't be so rough. You're nice, dependable and caring. You deserve a better life. I hope you can see that.

♥ Tiffany

Procrastinations and Pokemon

UGH! I'm like procrastinating on my anthro readings again because I was happy and proud of myself that I knew I'd be done early but then SURPRISE! another pops up on the syllabus that I didn't see before. I absolutely HAVE to read it though because we're having a class discussion on it tomorrow and it's graded -_- so that's why I'm procrastinating. I did all these readings before (except for the freaking houdini one) so I was just going to annotate them over spring break. But you know what I did? Bum. Pretty much. Yupp. Bunny said 'yesh! spring break you're mine!' but I didn't even see her all week lol. We had plans to go to mt charleston at sunrise to see how pretty it is but when i woke up at 5 am i got a text about how going when one just wants to sleep more isn't so nice xD So that was a bust. Practically the entire spring break I bummed playing pokemon diamond all week because steven got me addicted to it. I hadn't played pokemon since I was little when it was still only the red and blue and yellow(gold?) versions. But Justin's had it and finished it and steven has his own and wanted to battle someone so I got on, got addicted, and started my own profile xD

I guess spring break wasn't a total waste. I caught up on a philosophy assignment that I didn't know was even assigned yet until friday when my teacher was like oh yeah that reading I told you guys about.... Yupp first time hearing about it. I space in that class occasionally. Like today I was totally in.thee.zone! But out of nowhere I wonder where my lost sunglasses went and then wondered if I left them at my aunts and such and such and the next thing I hear is something something something about physics and psychology. WHAT?! I thought this was philosophy. Oh goodness. This is why I need to remember my coffee in the morning.

That too. I drink coffee again. Well more than tea now. Coffee is for class. Tea is for homework. Yeahh I'm just wasting my own time now aren't I?

This is possibly when I lost my beloved sunglasses. See how Steven and I are holding our DSi? One guess to what we're playing lol Aren't they cute kids? Happy 98th Birthday Lola!


There was a whole week that I didn't come onto here and I forgot to check ms. Mia's blog updates. Then I see her new one today and realize I skipped like three of her entries because I didn't check D: Good job Tifffany. You're an awesome friend. Lol xD

Mia! Summer is going to be OURS! Or well hopefully lol. The sad thing about looking forward to my summer is the uncertainty of it all. I want to take summer classes but I don't think I can pay for them. Then I want a summer job but the chance of rejection from everything makes me scared of the possibility of another bum summer. You know what would make my summer fun no matter what? A guy. Yupp haha. But as usual, no prospects.

Lately I've been getting messages/texts from friends that I haven't talked to in awhile. They're like my good friends that I just don't see and it's always great to know that even when we haven't talked in awhile we're still friends :] Like, all the time when I think of how many friends I have I think 'oh I lost a lot but I'm happy with my small group.' But then my older old friends do stuff like this and I'm just totally awe about it! I miss them! But they are so farrrrrrr!

Anyways, gotta go read the houdini paper about native burials (weeeeeeeeee! :P)
I'll do Day 3 later. Maybe. Or I'll skip day 3. I don't really know what to write to my parents and have no time to do a draft..... Okay wasting time BYE!♥

Day 2 - The Crush

Dear Jace, Wes and Peeta;

WHY CAN'T YOU BE REAL?!? Please?

Love always,
♥ Tiffany

Day 1 - The Best Friend

Dear OML,

IMY! I tried talking to you last night but you were getting drunk like a bum lol I would love to write you a long letter buuuuuut I'm kind of short on time. But I'll say this, you might be the only person that I feel comfortable about being drunk. AND if someday I feel like being stupid and letting loose for some strange reason and you happen to be in town. Lets go party! I know you'll be there for me if some weird guys try to push up on me or if I loose my common sense and I'm entirely thankful for that :] We've been through things together and we know that we can easily piss each other off but hey, if we're still friends then we know our limits and care enough to stay within them right? All your boy drama worries me because I don't know if you do it so you don't feel alone or to make yourself feel better. But you should know by now that you DEFINITELY don't need a boy in your life to be happy. Because you're the craziest person when you're single and you know how to have fun (while still being "sensible" of course lol).
I love you and miss you and I'm always here if you want to talk or just need a little sarcasm back in your life.

♥ Tiffany

30 Days, 30 Letters

Day 1- Your Best Friend
Day 2- Your crush
Day 3- Your Parents
Day 4- Your Sibling
Day 5- Your Dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to,
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror


I felt like doing one of those 30 day things but I didn't want to bite one off of people I know. So I stumbled across this while I was looking up nerdy-bookwormy-aka-very-me-like things. So ummmm yupp here we go :] ACTUALLY I'll start this after in the pm cause I needa wake up early and since I only have few very close friends and no specific best friend I think I'll just write it to a very close friend :] It's not that I'm a snob and think I'm too good to call anyone my best friend. I just think I'm jinxed with best friends because I've lost about every one that I had, one came back though so no pity party tiffany :] lol

Goodnight!♥

*sniff

My current music fancy :]


I'm getting lazy with this. I CANNOT get lazy with this! mmmmkay so! the past ten days what has happened? School. Lots of school. But now (THANKS GOD!) I'm on spring break, yesterday was my last class. Seriously though, my English class is not a real class. What we talked about yesterday was mainly Jersey Shore and Facebook. We didn't go over the reading, we didn't really learn anything and all I really went for was to turn in my essays. But she has this really slick rule: if you are 15 minutes late or leave 15 minutes early, you're considered absent. Oh wells we let out early anyways.

Mia was in town this week because practically everyone has an earlier spring break than CSN. I realized something about when Mia comes home, I usually don't see her until like the very last day. I don't do it intentionally it just happens that way. I also finally talked to my sister on friday, it was like a reminder about the upcoming summer and what I'm gonna be doing during it. Hopefully I'll be working, I need to start saving up for going to the U. My sister, Jessica, is going to Hawaii and invited me. That's so tempting! But there is also summer classes to think about. Hopefully it will be a productive summer, it would suck to end up bumming the entire break.

The weather here is being bipolar (AGAIN) and for once my allergies are really insanely, kill-me-now, kinda horrible. If I had a sore throat it could be considered for the flu but nope. Zyrtec please? Last week had insanely beautiful weather but all of a sudden we're hit with full cloud cover and blustering winds. My poor baby is sick too :[ but she likes wind and won't come inside. What's one to do?

Class canceled :]

Yesterday was CRAZY! Woke up late and proceeded to burn my hand with hot water from the kettle >< All I wanted was some tea! Then I was so excited that I was bringing my lunch because I made it especially healthy, driving down the street I realized I forgot it and had no time to back and get it. THEN I was pretty starving (no breakfast you see) and so I bought a croissant at the coffee shop on campus and ate it in class. After class I bought some lunch and went to starbucks to get some work done. But when I go sit at an outdoor table some guy on his cell phone decides to hover around my table for shade while he talks loudly. Ferreal? There was shade at the other emptier tables >< It all felt so rushed but I decided to go back to campus and go on my lappy outside my next class, which then I was gonna blog but then he started writing notes early and now my draft sits there waiting for me to delete it :[

Silver lining of the day? I ate apple pie when I got home lol

I tried to make an experiment with that stalkerish guy in my psych class but it failed because (a) he was later than usual (b)after class he popped out a cigarette. Because of exhibit b, ew. So unless something like exciting happens I won't be talking about him much :P

I now find Google pretty creepy. Seriously. I googled myself to see what sites would come up and you can find some pretty personal stuff about people! My stuff wasn't really there (Thank God). I don't know why but it wasn't. This one website came up where a list of people with the same last name came up. I clicked on my name and my mom's stuff came up. That's not good either but I'm still happy I'm kind of off the map haha xD

adfghjkl; MKAY now I'm just procrastinating. I got another essay to do :P A new mantra maybe? I do like English essays, I do like English essays, I do like English essays! Coffee time!

Silent Night

So I know I'm actually supposed to be sleeping even though it's pretty early but I keep thinking :P Ever have that moment when someone just pisses you off with their rudeness and then you just get all these angry flashbacks that just piss you off some more? It's annoying. I would love to go hiking right now but, well, trail is dangerous at night obviously.

I can't sleep. I keep thinking about all these unfair things and all the things everyone says. UGH! I went to church today and in the sermon the priest said, "It's who you are before what you do or say" or something like that give or take a few words. I wish people would actually listen to him though. This is one of those times where flashbacks taunt my brain. In a way saying 'oh you can't do it' or 'wow you suck at life'. But ferreal, I need to leave. I need to more than want to to save my own sanity D: For now I can clear my head with the chilly night air through my open window. Sitting against the window sill at at night with the fresh air coming in has always calmed me down. Always has, always will :] Just thought writing here would help clear it a little faster. Goodnight♥

Monkeys in Dreamland

So a local borders is closing down and they have practically everything in the store 25%-50% off. After my english class today I went there and wanted to buy two Sarah Dessen books and a book called Fallen that I've wanted to read for at least a year. BUT NO I had to be a responsible spender and buy that pocket dictionary I've been needing and only one Sarah Dessen book.

You see that lonely book on my somewhat cluttered desk? That book is Sarah Dessen's Dreamland. It's sitting there wondering what it did wrong in the 7 hours it has been here so that it has to be neglected. Lonely with no friends on a cold, hard desk in a strange room it's never seen before... you hear that? It's crying D': I can't touch it though! I told myself I wouldn't read it until I finished all my Anthro readings that I fell behind in. It really is mostly my fault I fell behind so I'm sorry Dreamland! I'll come rescue you eventually!

Lately it feels like everyday is long and tiring. Go to school at 1020am, class study class, then come home and do homework which, for the most part, is all reading. But my eyes, my poor poor eyes, can't take it like they used to. I'm supposed to use reading glasses when I wear my contacts but I never had to read so strenuously before so I never replaced my broken ones! So pretty much this week I've been coming home and napping because my eyes doth protest too much. That's also why I've been sucked into trying audio books for my leisurely readings: if I'm not required to read it, I'll listen to it instead. So my first try at an audio book isn't too bad. It's Along for the Ride by, yes, Sarah Dessen. What can I say? I'm hooked on her books lately so I'm trying to read them all. But I've read Along for the Ride before that's why I'm trying the audio book on it so I don't have to pay too much attention.

Blah, blah blah. OH! So I'm not sure to take a certain situation creepy or as a compliment of sort. I've noticed that cute guy from my psych class likes to watch me enter the building before class (he's usually outside smoking [EW]). I always thought it was pretty cute how he'll just watch me go in but on wednesday I came in from the other parking lot but he was already inside because he's tryna quit smoking. He watched me in the hallway, which I still felt was cute because I'm conceited that way LOL! That's not the confusing thing though. It was after class that was creepy-ish. He watched me go to my car. I noticed when I sat in my seat and turned to close the door and I saw him watching me. I guess he couldn't see me looking at him because the tinting on my windows are so dark plus my sunglasses were on but it was still kinda wierd. Then even when I cranked the engine he was watching me. Then I started to back out of my spot and when I turned around VOILA! He disappeared :O Creepy or not? I don't know for sure but it gave me a GREAAAT story idea :D Sadly it probably won't be written "/

OH yesterday I ran into an old acquaintance Cody when I was walking home from Starbucks on a beautiful afternoon :] He used to piss me off but now he looks different and was totally chill! I love when boys mature haha I don't think I should study at Starbucks anymore though. I tend to daydream with cozy atmospheres x]

MS RYSHANNE MIA CASTILLO! I saw your post and I miss you too! Sorry I haven't texted or anything I've been busy :[ But I think your Big Bang obsession is way worse than your Jonas one ever was lol! I hope you keep up with your blog cause that's the only way I have of knowing you're alive xD♥


Is there anything super important I forgot about this week? I can't remember. UHMMMMMMMMMMMM....

I think that's a good enough update yeah? I need to get on with my monkey/neanderthal readings so I can save Dreamland!

So Sleepy... D:

So sooo sleepy "/ School is fine. Home is okay. Trying to listen to an audio-book. Just felt like I should update D: Maybe saturday for a full one. mmmmmkay nap time :P